My memory!! What happened to my memory? Mr. Sandman stole it in the night? I lost it watching the WWI wrestling or America’s Next Top Model?? What happened?
It’s not just losing my keys, forgetting why I entered a room or not being able to complete a sentence with a shred of coherency, but I am staring this very moment, at my “to do” list from yesterday and one of the items I hastily scrawled marked “urgent” is: “MAKE PRICE RED SOCK”. What am I supposed to do with that?? I have formed the letters in every possible combination and got nothing! It may come back to me and then again may not.
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Jan
Mid Life Madness
Or…I don’t know what to do, which way to go…
I met a very gifted life coach at one of our women’s shows and wanted to pass along her information to you. More than just sometimes we can find ourselves stuck and in need of a little guidance. What’s nice about Nancy is she can coach you right from your phone and help you find the answers you are in need of.
Her website is: www.whatsonyourdash.com and her e-mail is: nancy@whatsonyourdash.com.
Blessings,
Jan
Jan
Mid Life Madness
I couldn’t feel my life. My body felt disjointed from my head; like my limbs were strewn about, each functioning but independent of each other; like my head was in command but the rest of me not listening. I couldn’t feel me. Each day working, conquering, climbing, battling be it in the office or in the grocery store, I was on 21st century autopilot.
I drove to the coast. I took off my shoes leaving behind my blackberry, computer, phone, the unanswered texts and e-mails and all the daily annoying, friendly, demanding chattering voices grabbing at me.
My goal was to walk on the beach and clear my head. I mastered this for about 30 seconds. Catching myself several minutes later planning my next business meeting, I realized I was totally unaware of the majesty of my surroundings. I had to break it down:
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Jan
Menopause
With all the ways and means to connect, interact and socialize with people online, why is it sometimes, the more I tweet, Facebook, blog, e-mail, myspace, I feel a sense of growing aloneness?
I once heard that the social networking available to us today is causing a sort of dehumanization. I sometimes wonder. I can tweet with the best of them and while it is entertaining to find out what Matthew Perry is cooking for dinner, I often wonder what happened to the art of letter writing or phone calling. Online social networking is admittedly quicker, easier and more effective but I’m not sure it nourishes the human soul as much as tickles the curious mind.
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Jan
Menopause, Mid Life Madness
Ever have the feeling like you want to wrap your arms around something and just hold on for awhile? And with that, a deep unexplainable sadness?
My life couldn’t be better. At 55, a great career, wonderful husband who loves me dearly and makes me laugh, healthy and happy grown daughters….then why so sad?
I miss, so much, my babies who needed lullaby rocking; my little girls who needed their hair brushed and noses wiped; my young adolescent girls who were finding their way…
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Jan
Menopause
You thoughtfully compose and write your e-mail or blog, waxing eloquent, and your browser quits…happens all to often. Will try again some other time.
Jan
Menopause
For some of us, finding balance is an on-going challenge, be it in our work, relationships, health, etc. I, for some reason take the ‘all or nothing’ approach to life, joy riding the swinging pendulum from the “I can do it all” to the “I’m so wiped out I can’t move” mentality.
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Jan
Menopause
Labor and Delivery. They say you forget the pain. HA! Well maybe I don’t remember fully the physical pain but I do remember lying there with piggyback contractions, no time for meds and literally screaming while my husband pats my hand and repeatedly says, “You’re OK, you’re fine.” Hmmm. ‘This is just doesn’t seem fair”, I thought. Actually all the way back in high school, I didn’t see my brothers bent over in pain once a month and again, it just didn’t seem fair!
I’ve always been somewhat of a crusader for justice. This usually takes place in the confines of my own head and within my circle of relationships, but nonetheless in the order of my perceptions, all should be just and fair or I feel disturbed and unarranged.
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Jan
Menopause
